Weekly Love

I’m saying I love you to the badonka donk. LOVE | Issue No.1

This post is all about…

Where my LEGS end and my BUTT begins.

I love you.

I’ve always had a small upper body, small waist, and nice sized thighs. As my sister and I discuss regularly…

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I’ve struggled for years with my lower half, I mean… I guess we should call it what it is. My backside, my butt, my ass, my badonka donk – okay, I’ll never call it that again – let’s stick with my butt. More specifically this week, I focused on the goddamn crease between my butt and my legs.

I mean the I-love-you-so-much butt crease.

This is more a reflection on not being 21 anymore then really my body image. This past month I’ve been slowly hacking away at my closet, throwing out old hand-me-downs, things I never wore once, and things I only ever dreamed would suit me.

There were these two dresses that, through all my purging, I kept. Yesterday I pulled them out. I tried both of them on, probably spending a little over 30 minutes just looking at myself in the mirror.

There was this dress.

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And this one.

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Both adorbs. However, I couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t see myself ever wearing them. I realized, after scrutinizing for a while, that it had EVERYTHING to do with my insecurity of the back of my upper legs. I.E. that beautiful softer part that slowly creeps up to my butt.

So, I decided TWO things.

  1.  I need to say I LOVE YOU more to that area. Which may translate into me talking to my butt more… but I really don’t care.
  2. I need to buy longer dresses.

And you know what? I did, I immediately put those two dresses up on eBay for sale and went to the store to buy myself a cute black dress that stops JUST ABOVE the KNEES.

When I bought that dress. I felt SEXY. Because, it was showing off every part of me that oozed confidence.

I realized, I had a hard time letting go of those dresses because I thought I had failed myself. I thought, because I didn’t like how I looked in those dresses I wasn’t working hard enough to keep my body in the BEST. SHAPE. EVAH. *cue growling and workout music montage*

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None of that’s it. Finding clothes that make you feel sexy is so important, and holding on to clothes that don’t. That make you feel lesser and, dare I say, UNSEXY; is so un-necessary.

I guess my point is. Through taking this week to truly focus in on that part of my body, say I love you, and accept it. I’ve realized, to make me feel more cared for and nourished, I need to make sure that I am giving it EVERY THING to make it be the best it can be.

If longer dresses are the solution. Then that’s the solution for now.

This is definitely one I am going to have to revisit. Next week will be a different body part, but expect me to be talking about my butt a little more in the not-so-distance future.

Because, I mean – who doesn’t love a little ass talk?

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Comments? What do you say “I love you” too this week? Let me know in the comments below!

 

 

 

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