This blog post is all about…
My jaw line and the silhouette it creates.
I love you.
I have an overbite. When I was a little girl my mum took me to the dentist and the dentist said for them to ‘fix’ my overbite they would have to break my jaw, move it forward, and re-fix it in place.
That scared the shit out of little ol’ me.
So, I never did it.
Growing up my siblings (and other kids within my social group) would make fun of the fact that my mouth didn’t naturally close, I always had my front teeth showing. I still do. Back then, I was embarrassed and would lock my jaw forward and shut it purposefully so no one would notice. It looked unnatural and, honestly, it was painful.
Because of this, my jaw constantly clicks and will get stuck on occasion. Because of this, I clench my jaw at night trying to force it forward. Because of this, I get tension headaches. Because of this, I have changed my hairstyle multiple times to find the best cut that HIDES my jaw line.
Because of this, sometimes I don’t think I’m pretty.
I love my smile.
But my smile isn’t like the classic Hollywood smile. It’s huge with my beautiful crooked buck teeth at the forefront of the picture.
Now, at this time in my life, I find it charming and unique. It took me a very long time to bring myself to that mind set.
It’s hard to love something that media doesn’t portray as beautiful. It’s hard for me to even admit that I am swayed so easily by what society tells me I should look like.
This is the one part of my body that I have no ability to change. I can’t workout, I can’t diet, I can’t eat all the amazing foods in the world to have gloriously wonderful glowing skin. None of that will suddenly make my jaw line change.
What do I do then? How do I love this part of myself unconditionally?
I say, I love you, to it everyday.
I relax my jaw when I feel myself clenching.
When I smile, I smile bigger.
I use organic pressed oils on my face daily to douse it in a little extra love.
Only a few things but enough that now, generally, I am really happy with that part of myself. Occasionally I’ll have an insecure day, we all do, but when that happens rather then hiding it – I accept it. I accept this is something I still have to overcome, I douse it in a little more love, and move forward.
You must accept the things you can’t change, and love it that much more. Because, this jaw-line of mine has been through many years of love, loss, trail, errors, and adventures. When I think about it, I wouldn’t want to change it. I wouldn’t want it any other way.
Comments? What did you say “I love you” too this week? Let me know in the comments below!